the all or nothing kid

http://saintjimmyrules.blogspot.com/

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I believe in desperate acts, the kind that make you look stupid..look like a fool. Just keep reinventing myself...It's move or die (I change my form) These days the people I love are spread so far apart...all out of reach. It's a thin sheet across the face...cover me now. That's pretty old. I never felt like this before, I say that every hour. It's never going to be like it could have been. Now it's just this room. (Window looks back) You're a big part of it, but I don't care...you take the lead. And can you really see me now like I made me? Made me anew. Just like anyone at all. Safer alone. So right, so wrong, another winter's coming on. You win, you lose, it's the same old news. These things go wrong so often. Pick up the phone
and punch your code. Somewhere, sometime let me make you mine. Lean your head on mine like you used to. [I'm] used to your lean. I don't mind if you're faking it...make it seem real. I'm not asking the questions, I'm not demanding the answers now. (Take what you give) Right or wrong, just take me, lead me on. I'm going.

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oh, hey

You are a Social Moderate (41% permissive) and an... Economic Conservative (66% permissive) You are best described as a: Centrist Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

You exhibit a very well-developed sense of Right and Wrong and believe in economic fairness.

i ended up with extra tickets to these shows, you know why. i have tickets for BOTH staten island shows:

sat oct 1:
the killers
new york dolls
interpol
british sea power
tegan and sara
the ordinary boys
lake trout


(i was actually going to go myself to that one)

sun oct 2:
oasis
doves
jet
the lemonheads
kasabian
jesse malin
the redwalls


tickets cost me $65 each, i will sell them for $55! help!

someone come see green day with me tonight, im leaving at 6 and its in CT plzplzplzplzplz

we are all alone
all of us don't know-where to begin.
we are all alone
all of us don't know...where to begin.


we are al alone (alone
all of us (just dont know) dont know where to begin
doin for ourselves
do it for ourselves
doin for ourselves
do it for ourselves
do it for myself
do it for ourselves

Singing along with John Poverty and hugging him while Start Today was playing was a great end to the night. It's as if the past 5 years came full circle.


Dave said afterwards that he remembers the first time he heard the band, it was the beginning of his sophomore year at PV and I was going home and I passed him in my car as he was exiting through the gym corridor. Apparently, I rolled down the window and said, "Dave, get in, you gotta hear this." So he gets in and I put on the cd, which is start today. The horn intro stared playing, and he didn't know what to expect. Then the song began and he didn't know what to do. Then in December when John started going to the school and we started hanging out with him more, he heard it through us, and now is the dude he is today.


Secretly, every fall that has occured since then, I think back to what a blast it all was, everything we did. Discovering bands for ourselves and then putting them on for each other. Once we went out and I bought a youth of today cd and he bought a refused cd, and we both were saying that the other had to listen to what we had bought. It's not just music, it was new friends (not just Dave and John) and good times.


The times were such a departure from the year before, spent mostly hanging out with the njmf kids and such and dealing with all that bullshit. It all really started driving around bored and simply giving Dave a ride where he needed to go because I saw him walking. The first time I met John we were all going to a show in sussex and then his mom went and picked him up from the show. Now John goes into the city a day earlyto wait on line to get into a show and has his window smashed and stereo broken and it doesn't matter because he got in.

I think I'm rambling now so I'll stop. If only I could live up to the song I was given the opportunity to be graced with the mic.

"I'm lucky to be where I am today, not for myself, summer's on the way, the jobs i'll be working, the money i'll spend. Not making a living, just making new friends. And I'm trying my hardest to make the most of every minute not getting any younger, getting older and it's scary swept out from under your feet, your youth's gone and you wonder why...cuz time's flying by....I think it's dumb to let anyone or anything slow me down or prevent me from living my life. Not getting any younger getting older, and it's scary. And I'm scared too. "

Civ let me sing the end of Time Flies.

My heart is like a bomb.
Went to a show (house) last
night. (band sucked) but she's
got my mother's eyes.
Blue like my dreams. Good
guys do wear black. she
calls me Jimmy. It's better
than "what's his face." could
this be lust or "the dawning."
she thinks i'm full of shit. But
she thinks I'm cute. Or is it
the opposite? But we do
agree on one thing. . . Good
Guys don't wear red, white
& Blue -J


( she's holding on my heart like a hand grenade )

Dear Mom,

I shot drugs for the first time today (thank you Jimmy). Now we're getting somewhere (nowhere). We don't need no stinking badges. What? Who said that? This is good. My ass took a beating. I forgot to take a shower (again) Ahh...Holy water. I am in the denial. But at least I got a friend. Mom, You were right. I did make a friend at camp. Remember when dad (BRAD?) said I one up'd him. I amount to nothing. I knew you'd be proud. I got a place to stay by the way. I'm on the couch tour from hell. I still ahve a few bucks left so I should be fine for awhile. Send my love to the 7-11


And Yes. I AM Satan.

( <3 )
-J


P.S. Send Money

I'll bet you never knew, with a letter came a fool for you.

i still wear your heart around my throat

god i cant wait to see against me at giants stadium

THEY WILL NEVER TRUELY KILL US



AND WE WILL NEVER

TRULY DIE

Why didn't I listen to Silent Majority before today?

If anyone knows anyone with a ticket to green day at giants stadium Floor (not extra) that is a ticketfast ticket, please let me know.

( ...and don't wear it out )